Let’s Talk It Out

~What’s up y’all!! I pray this week provided you with the clarity you’ve been searching for. As for me… This week has been an emotional roller-coaster! I mean, I cried almost every day and couldn’t begin to explain why. I made it through though! On this journey, I want to let y’all in a little deeper than usual. Ready? Indulge and Enjoy!~

Transparency is, still, key with us, right? Okay, so here goes nothing… I’m struggling to embark on this week’s journey with you all… I mean, I know exactly what I want to say, just don’t know how to formulate my thoughts without feeling like I’m exploiting the topic…

You see, God is the most important part of my life… He gave me this platform… He’s been journeying with me since before I knew journeys were a thing. He chooses our journeys and he walks on them with us weekly… So, I’m sure you’re wondering, just as I am, why am I struggling?

Let’s talk it out! Religion is, and will always be, the most controversial topic in the world. Hold up… Pause… Before I go any further… This post is not to sway ANYONE to my religious beliefs and vice versa! Now, what was I about to say? Right, this family is made up of so many different walks of life, from around the world, I would never want to offend any of you.

Yes, I sprinkle God in our journeys from time to time, however, I’ve never done an entire journey on him. Now as most of us know, our journey, each week, is based on what I feel is the major point of interest, in my life, that week. Well, this week it was definitely my faith!! So I should be able to talk about it right? Glad you agree!

I spent this week seeking God. I felt He and I had been missing some intimate time with one another, and I heard Him asking me to make room for Him. Without thinking twice, I turned off the secular music and turned on my Christian playlist! But, by Tuesday afternoon, I didn’t feel satisfied.

Before I went to sleep Tuesday, I agreed to seek Him even harder the next day. Now, Monday and Tuesday, I woke up at 5:15 am with no troubles, but Wednesday… Man Wednesday, I woke up at 6:36 am. I LEAVE THE HOUSE AT 7 am! So, needless to say, I missed my prayer time.

I was determined though. I get to work and turn on a sermon and really dig into what is being said and then BOOM… My emotions went on a rampage. I became so upset for no reason at all. Then, all at once, I became really sad. I mean it was completely out of my control. This rollercoaster lasted for the rest of the week…

Needless to say, while writing this, I’m still not in the greatest headspace… Usually, when I journey with you all, I’ve walked through the beginning middle and end. This time, not so much. To be honest, I think I’m still at the beginning. I mean, I know I’m blessed, and I, also, know I’m highly favored in the Lord! However, at times— most of the time, I struggle to receive His love because I know I’m not worthy.

Wow! There it is family! I’m struggling because I know I don’t deserve to be loved by God… Guess what though! HE LOVES ME! He loves me more than I will ever know. More than my mind will ever be able to grasp! And, I have to accept His love. I have to be confident in known, in His eyes I am more than worthy of His love! AND YOU HAVE TO TOO!

If you’ve made it this far, I really want to thank you! I know this is different from the journeys we usually have, however, I had to walk through this and B.P.L. is the only place to do so for me! I love y’all.

Be blessed!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

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I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

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