A Piece of Pieces

Today, I accept reality. A reality, at least 27 years in the making. A reality, easy to mask around others. A reality, meant to force the stigmas of the world on me, in hopes to keep me shackled in defeat. But, today I accept reality, breaking the chains of the generational curses attempting to drag my soul into the darkest pits of hell. So let’s talk about it…

I’ve used everything in my reach to hold my heart together, for all these years. I started with glue, tracing the cracks of abandonment, formed by the selfish acts of an unavailable father. Next, I used tape to realign the shattered pieces of neglect, caused by a mother simply stretched too thin. Afterwards, I found rubber bands to hold the falling pieces of rejection caused by, well way too many events to name. Truth? My heart is broken…

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So how do you love with a broken heart?

You don’t…

You can’t…

It’s impossible!

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Honestly, as I look at 2021, my only goal is to mend my brokenness. To, not only, forgive myself of my transgressions and my transgressors, but to genuinely let go of the pain. I have so many emotions bottled up from my past, I thought I had let go of, yet they constantly show up in my thoughts and actions.

I no longer want to be responsible for my own self-destruction. And, I no longer want to wait for anyone to correct their actions with me. A lot of the individuals that have hurt me no longer have access to me and that’s perfectly acceptable. However, I still have to do the work to fix the crack the interaction caused in my life.

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The most nerve wracking part for me is creating my own closure. It makes me realize I haven’t had closure from several obstacles in my past. Instead, I built walls that allowed me to become numb to everything. Shutting out not only people who have hurt me, but the ones who haven’t also. Now, I’m ready to live… vividly. Breaking down these walls will be so difficult, but I’m ready. After spending the majority of my life only operating on surface level emotions, I’m over it. I want to feel! I want to enjoy and experience life in wholeness.

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Mending my heart is the only obligation I have, this year.

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So, y’all ready to explore this crazy journey with me!

Stay tuned & look out for more pieces!

(All new journeys will be uploaded the 1st and 3rd Saturday of each month by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Self-Love

This week was a low one for me, confidence-wise. I wanted to do something to alter my emotions and show appreciation for myself. I mean, there isn’t a whole lot to go out and do, with COVID still in full effect. So, I decided to raid my closet and have a mini photoshoot. Here’s a peek…

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So, as you can see, this photoshoot absolutely brought back my confidence! It was just me, a tripod, and a glass of wine, but man was it fun! I got to be the model, stylist, and photographer. What surprised me the most was how an activity so small, trivial to most, could make me feel so good about myself. It cost me absolutely nothing, and made me feel AMAZING.

Honestly, all I want to share this week is to make sure to take time to focus on you! Self-love is so important and it doesn’t have to cost you anything. Find a little time to do what makes you happy weekly, if not daily. And always remember, it’s okay to feel down, just don’t allow yourself to stay down!

I love y’all!

(All new journeys will be uploaded the 1st and 3rd Saturday of each month by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

May’s Look of the Month

Hey, y’all!!! May is winding down super fast! What are you all doing for Memorial Day? We missed our Look of the Month, because of our Mother’s Day journey. So, I wanted to double back and have a beauty journey! Well, here it is! Indulge & Enjoy!

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This is a very simple natural look. I actually wore this look to the interview for my current position. After my interview, it quickly became my go-to natural look!

I pray you enjoy this look as much as I do! Can’t wait to explore with you all soon!

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Momma

What’s up y’all! I know it’s supposed to be beauty week, you know, when I show y’all the look of the month, but I figured we’d switch it up a little. I mean it is Mother’s Day weekend, of course, and what’s more beautiful than a bond between a mother and daughter? So, this week is dedicated to my beautiful mother! Well, let’s explore. Indulge and Enjoy!

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Dear Momma,

Every year, I try to think of creative ways to show my love and appreciation for you, on this day. This year, I figured why not share it with the world! As you journey with me today, I want you to know I am me because of you. My best attributes are a reflection of you and though we’ve seen some of the toughest times, the one thing I would never change is you!

Our relationship has literally been a roller-coaster ride. We’ve yelled, we’ve cried, we’ve even given each other the silent treatment. Now, we call each other at midnight, nothing’s wrong, we just want to watch TV together. As a child, I would beg you to leave me alone. Now, I blow your phone up if you don’t answer within, what I consider, a reasonable time. It’s crazy how time will mend a relationship. As our coaster balances out, I’m so glad we chose to ride together.

Your light shines brightly within me. It’s amazing to hear people tell me I light up a room because I’ve watched you do it my entire life. From your charming personality to your glowing smile, you’ve always been a magnet in this crazy world. The moments I found embarrassing growing up, are now the same ones I compare to my own actions and joke with you about (remember whippin’ and naenaein’ all through Sam’s Club, lol).

I know you’re a pretty private person, so I won’t put too much of your business on here. I just want you to know you’re all I could ever ask for in a mother. I thank you for all you’ve done and continue to do for me. You’re human and of course, you make mistakes. I just want you to know I appreciate those as well. You are one of the most caring, compassionate, loving individuals I’ve ever met. And, I pray I inherited those characteristics also. Though things aren’t perfect at this very moment, I want you to know I love and appreciate you beyond belief, and with us at each other’s side, we’re gonna be alright.

I can guarantee I’ll be talking to you within the next hour, however, always remember, “Loud cars need gas too!”

Happy Mother’s Day!

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

April’s Look of the Month

Family!!! How are y’all holding up, during this lock-down? The quarantine struggle is R-E-A-L! I will say, it has given me more time to experiment with makeup, and other hobbies I enjoy. Recently, I learned how to apply strip lashes, which was fun!

Anywho, this month’s look is really soft and natural (which seemed to be the perfect break I needed from this heavy time we’re dealing with). Well, take a look. Indulge & Enjoy!

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So, what do you think? Honestly, this is one of my favorite everyday looks. I feel like it makes my appearance “nicer,” or more “approachable,” personality-wise. Plus, my brows are definitely on FLEEK! I pray you all enjoyed it as much as I do.

Oh, by the way, I have to let you guys know, this will be the last post for the month of April. There are some classes I have to take for my job and, for the next two weeks, it’s going to be as if I’m back in school.

I will still be active on Facebook and Instagram. Be sure to like/follow on both platforms to stay connected!

Instagram: @beautiful.passionate.love._

Facebook: Beautiful Passionate Love

I’ll see you all on May 2nd for our next journey.

Stay Safe!

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Look of the Month

What’s up y’all!!! Are we ready for the look of the month? I’m excited to share this look with you! I started doing makeup with really natural looks, and I tend to stay there. But, this week I decided to step out of the box a little… Take a look and let me know what you think!

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Yes, you’re right, this is where I should list all of the products I’ve used to achieve this look, but I neglected to write them down (my sincerest apologies). So instead, what I would like to leave you with is this.

In the middle of executing this look, I glanced in the mirror and hated it! I felt as I’d I had ruined the look I was attempting. I decided to wipe everything off and start all over.

As I began reaching for the wipes, there was a small feeling of encouragement, persuading me to keep going. So I did. I kept applying as though I knew exactly what I wanted the outcome to be.

Long story short… I LOVE THIS LOOK! I said all of this to say. Don’t be so quick to give up. You may fall in love with the outcome!

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(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Look of the Month

Hey Hey! Are you all ready for the look of the month? As I mentioned, these weeks will be little to no words. Honestly, I’m not sold on these beauty posts, therefore we may be revamping this week.

Anywho, are y’all ready to explore this week’s look? Indulge & Enjoy!!

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This look was achieved with:

Makeup Revolution London
- Conceal & Define Full Coverage Foundation F13
- Conceal & Define Concealer C12.5
- Rose Gold Chocolate Eyeshadow Pallet
- Reloaded Lustre Lights Cool Highlighter

Wet-N-Wild
- Life’s No Pink-nic #962A Lips

Maybelline
- Lash Stiletto Very Black

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This was one of the first looks I achieved and was super proud of! I love the natural look, you know where you can still see my “flaws”.

Questions about the look? Comment them and I’ll make sure to get back to you. Thanks for taking this quick journey with me.

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Welcome to 2020!!

Happy New Year!!! When I tell you I am so excited about what God is doing within me this year!! I mean, words can’t even begin to express the joy and humility in my soul! I am so honored to be the daughter of the Highest King.

So, on our last journey, if you remember, I explained, we have focused enough on the past and it’s time to explore the present and the future! Well, this week I’m going to share with you what this will look like. I pray you’re as excited as I am! Indulge & Enjoy!!

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Alrighty, so 2020 is going to lead to us exploring a wider variety of journeys each month. I have broken the journeys into weeks. Let’s see what each month will look like to start the year.

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Week 1: Creative Writing (Fiction/Nonfiction)

Week 2: All Things Beauty

Week 3: Spiritual

Week 4: Monthly Reflection

Week 5: Wild Card (When Applicable)

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Please note, these journeys are subject to change periodically throughout the year!

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Now that we have a little structure to this year, let’s dive into this week’s journey! So Beautiful. Passionate. Love. made a rather large expansion on the first of the year via Facebook (Follow us Beautiful Passionate Love— You’re missing out!).

Back in June, we explored I Like It-You Don’t Have To, where we discussed my new found love for makeup! Well, what I didn’t know was, my love for makeup is so much bigger than just me applying it to myself. I love all things makeup!!

From talking about it to showing others how to apply it, to getting dolled up and just hanging out around the house… I have a genuine love for makeup! So, on January 1st, 2020, B.P.L. announced we are expanding into the beauty world!

I am accepting 5-6 clients (models) to come on board from January till April for me to perfect the application process! Once the application process is perfected, we will roll out phase II of the beauty sector (late April, early May).

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Now, future beauty journeys aren’t going to be wordy at all. They are going to be more so a look of the week, along with a product review (sometimes).

This will be where I explore my growth in the beauty world and how/if it impacts my day to day life. I don’t wear makeup daily so, once we have clients rolling in, we may also do a client spotlight.

I want beauty weeks to be super fun! I may even start recording myself applying makeup and letting you all critique me!

Remember, this is our journey. Therefore, share what you like and don’t like. Share what you want more of! Share your own journeys!

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With all that being said, here’s our Look(s) of the Month!

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See you all next week!

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.