Do You Know What Today Is?

IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARY!!

Yes! We have been exploring together for exactly ONE YEAR today! Man, I can’t even believe it! I mean I literally remember sitting at my desk (at work) wondering if I should even embark on this journey. I promise I’m so glad I did!

Journeying with you all has taught me so much about myself! I mean, this month last year, God revealed, I knew absolutely nothing about Alyshia-Mae. He showed me, in order to move forward, I had to look backward one last time. So, I chose to do the work! I’m still doing the work… I will forever be doing this work!

Wow! How did I miss the significance of this month? I’m celebrating our first year together while getting settled into an entirely new state! You all journeyed with me through my first trip to Kentucky! Christmas of last year! Now, I live here!!! On top of all that, 2 years ago, on October 6th, 2017, I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior! As you can see, October has been HUGE for me these last couple of years.

Prior to this realization, I use to HATE the month of October! I mean between, clowns, vampires, bats, and zombies, I felt I couldn’t leave the house without being scared out of my mind. I would make sure to be locked in my home before dark and to turn off all the lights on Halloween, to ensure no one knocks on my door. Now, I just feel free. I’m amazed at how God will use a month I dread to bring me back to life! I’m so excited to see how He reveals Himself, even further, to me in this beautiful month!

Are y’all ready to explore on a deeper level? Throughout this last year, I’ve learned to accept all aspects of my past. With me being comfortable with, and accepting my past, it opens up an entirely deeper, more intimate level of exploring!

It’s a beautiful feeling to not fear judgment. To know who you are, in the Father. To accept your mistakes and FORGIVE YOURSELF, as you ask for forgiveness. I thank God for the person I am today, and am ecstatic to pursue Him on an even deeper level throughout this next year of journeying!

I want to take the time out to say THANK YOU ALL!! From the ones who have been with me since Taking a Chance, to the ones who are journeying with us for the first time today, and everyone in between… I LOVE YOU!

I appreciate you, you don’t know how much it means to know I have family in 56 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. This is only the beginning! I am enthusiastic to see what this next year brings!!

Please note we will not be exploring this Saturday (10/12). I have to get some things situated here in Kentucky. We will be back to our normal schedule the following Saturday (10/19).

Stay tuned as I continue…

“Working on me- While sharing with you!”

I love y’all!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

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Growing Pains

-Hey B.P.L. Family! I am so proud to say I’m done with class!! I’ve passed my state exam and now I’m in Birthday mode!!! By the way, there will not be a Journey next week, as I’ll be celebrating my birthday! Our next journey will be on June 1st. Now, let’s dive into this week’s journey. Ready to explore? Cool beans! Indulge and Enjoy!-

This week, a memory came up in Facebook Memories, and I’d like to share it with you. Take a look…

Man, I can’t believe how selfish I was! How did I genuinely believe no one from my past should find happiness before me? Why did I think this mindset was okay? Why did I even care whether they were happy or not?

I mean, yeah, I was cool with all of my exes. Even when the relationship ended on bad terms I would always be sure to forgive them or ask them to forgive me, and we would continue our friendship. But, why was I so invested in them not finding their significant others before me?

Truth? Well, I never let them go… Any of them. When our relationships ended, I would hold on to the smallest piece of it as a keepsake. A little bit of hope that we would find our way back to each other.

Perfect example… My ex-fiancé and I were off and on for 10 years before we even got engaged. We literally refused to let each other go. We would enter into new relationships destroy them and then run back to each other. It was complete and utter dysfunction, yet, somehow we thought marriage would make it better…

What I hate the most about this time in my life, is how I justified my actions. Whenever one of my exes and I got back together, I would say “ This has to be God telling me he’s the one.” Anytime I did something I knew I shouldn’t have, I would convince myself “God understands,” and continue down my road to destruction… Looking back at it now, it’s a little embarrassing…

The greatest change I’ve made over the last year is losing the “me first” attitude. Learning how to cheer for everyone, whether I’m in the race or not! I mean, I’ve always been the type to want everyone to succeed, I just wanted to get there first.

*** Hahaha***

I genuinely thank God for the relationships he placed the men of my past in, leading them to marriage because it forced me to let go… ALL THE WAY! And, during that letting go process, I was forced to be honest with myself. I cried, a lot… I screamed, too much…And, I hated myself, too often… After a while, however, God slowly started to reveal who I am destined to be.

Now, I smile, uncontrollably… I’m genuinely happy, constantly… And, daily I’m on track to be a better me, AUTHENTICALLY!!

This journey as a whole isn’t an easy one. I’m so thankful to have all of you to share it with! Please remember, no matter where you are in life to: Enjoy your growth process, growing pains and all! Have a Happy Memorials Day (May 27th- My Birthday!) See y’all June 1st!!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.