Do You Know What Today Is?

IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARY!!

Yes! We have been exploring together for exactly ONE YEAR today! Man, I can’t even believe it! I mean I literally remember sitting at my desk (at work) wondering if I should even embark on this journey. I promise I’m so glad I did!

Journeying with you all has taught me so much about myself! I mean, this month last year, God revealed, I knew absolutely nothing about Alyshia-Mae. He showed me, in order to move forward, I had to look backward one last time. So, I chose to do the work! I’m still doing the work… I will forever be doing this work!

Wow! How did I miss the significance of this month? I’m celebrating our first year together while getting settled into an entirely new state! You all journeyed with me through my first trip to Kentucky! Christmas of last year! Now, I live here!!! On top of all that, 2 years ago, on October 6th, 2017, I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior! As you can see, October has been HUGE for me these last couple of years.

Prior to this realization, I use to HATE the month of October! I mean between, clowns, vampires, bats, and zombies, I felt I couldn’t leave the house without being scared out of my mind. I would make sure to be locked in my home before dark and to turn off all the lights on Halloween, to ensure no one knocks on my door. Now, I just feel free. I’m amazed at how God will use a month I dread to bring me back to life! I’m so excited to see how He reveals Himself, even further, to me in this beautiful month!

Are y’all ready to explore on a deeper level? Throughout this last year, I’ve learned to accept all aspects of my past. With me being comfortable with, and accepting my past, it opens up an entirely deeper, more intimate level of exploring!

It’s a beautiful feeling to not fear judgment. To know who you are, in the Father. To accept your mistakes and FORGIVE YOURSELF, as you ask for forgiveness. I thank God for the person I am today, and am ecstatic to pursue Him on an even deeper level throughout this next year of journeying!

I want to take the time out to say THANK YOU ALL!! From the ones who have been with me since Taking a Chance, to the ones who are journeying with us for the first time today, and everyone in between… I LOVE YOU!

I appreciate you, you don’t know how much it means to know I have family in 56 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. This is only the beginning! I am enthusiastic to see what this next year brings!!

Please note we will not be exploring this Saturday (10/12). I have to get some things situated here in Kentucky. We will be back to our normal schedule the following Saturday (10/19).

Stay tuned as I continue…

“Working on me- While sharing with you!”

I love y’all!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

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I Like It-You Don’t Have To

~Hey There! I pray this week has revealed just a piece of your destiny to you. Not much, just enough to encourage you to keep pushing through all obstacles in front of you. As for me, this week has been beautiful overall! I reconnected with an old friend and I’m back in the gym! Let’s not waste any time. Clear your mind, get ready for this journey and… Indulge & Enjoy!~

So, I’ve been struggling with how I wanted to explore this topic, still slightly am… We’re all about transparency here though, so I’m just going to do what I do best and keep it real with y’all! I mean, I know you guys won’t judge me.

If you’ve been exploring with me since the beginning, then you know I’ve struggled with multiple insecurities. From feeling invisible, to looking in the mirror and literally hating the person looking back at me, self-hate confound me.

A few months prior to the birth of Beautiful. Passionate. Love., I decided I was tired of hating myself and started my journey of self-discovery. While a huge part of this journey is sharing with you all, there is a plethora of hard work and dedication you don’t see.

Humbly, I am oh so very proud to say I’m not that insecure little girl I use to be! Yes, I’ve come a long way, however, some days I feel I’m right back to square one. Now, before someone tries to say, “If you can go back there, then you haven’t grown much at all,” check this out…

I can’t remember if I told y’all or not, however, shorty is becoming a makeup expert! I began experimenting with it back in April, when one of my friends convinced me to buy my first liquid lipstick (I ended up leaving the store with 5- plus my first makeup bag!)

About a week after my first purchase, I needed a new makeup bag, the original one could no longer zip up. Of course, my work bestie Barbarella and I headed back to Target for a new bag… and more lippies (liquid lipsticks). I was killing the lips and mascara look on a daily. Then, I was introduced to Ulta!!! Words can’t express how much I love this store!

I purchased two eye-shadow palettes and a highlighter palette. COMPLETELY FELL IN LOVE! So, Saturday I make one of my random trips to Ulta (these trips happen about 3 times a week) and decide I want to try foundation. Now, allow me to be honest. I am blessed with very clear, even-toned, beautiful skin, so foundation really isn’t needed. I just wanted to see how it looked! To say, I LOVE IT would be an understatement!! Check it out…

Family!!! Clearly, you all can see, I’m feeling myself! Now, listen to the mess that happens next…

From the day I started wearing Lippies, criticism regarding me wearing makeup surfaced from everywhere. “That color is too bright,” or “Dark colors don’t fit your complexion…” One person even went as far as saying, “You don’t look right with makeup on.”

Even though I receive so much positive feedback, I was starting to feel discouraged. I love how I look with and without makeup. Am I supposed to stop wearing it simply because the people around me don’t like my new look? Do I have to listen to them? Are they right? Am I using makeup to hide insecurities I thought were gone?

What I’m realizing is, insecurities don’t ever fully go away. What happens is, as you learn to love yourself and build up your self-esteem, you build security within yourself. So, what starts to happen is, when those insecurities start trying to shine through, a loud voice begins to overpower those thoughts.

Affirmations such as, “I am beautiful even when I don’t feel as such,” no longer have to be verbally said because we don’t have “ugly days” anymore. We begin to see our own beauty in every facial expression we make. We here those negative comments and they begin to go in one ear and out of the other.

The biggest lesson I’ve learned is, there’s always going to be someone who doesn’t like what you choose to do, wear, or say. Their opinions, especially unsolicited, shouldn’t ever contribute to how you feel about yourself. Once you learn to love all of you, finding joy in life becomes so much easier.

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.