Take Control of Your Destiny

~Hello Beautiful People! I pray this week has allowed you to step out of your comfort zone, and explore new opportunities! As for me, this week has shown me a few areas of opportunity to grow and of course, I’d love to share them with you. Ready to explore? Awesome! Indulge & Enjoy!~

This week I took time to focus on me, while still making time to enjoy my family that was in town. I must say I’ve learned a lot about myself, good and bad. I’m sure by now, if you’ve been on this journey with me from the beginning, you’re thinking… “ This woman is always self-evaluating.” Truth? You’re absolutely right! Evaluations, in my opinion, allow me to dig deep into my progress and make the needed changes to continue my growth. Because I NEVER want to stop growing, I will never stop evaluating myself. Take a look at the 4 major facts I learned over the past week!

You have come a long way, however, you have so far to go!

It’s very important to have this lesson at the top of my list! To take a moment, reflect on where I’ve been, and where I am now. I mean, I’ve worked daily to get to where I am, and it would be unfair not to praise myself (just a tad) for the accomplishments I’ve made thus far, no matter how small.

We as people, work off of appreciation. Think about it… How many times have you held the door open for someone, and waited for them to ‘thank you’? As they walk through the door, not even looking at you, you want to shout, “YOU’RE WELCOME!!” No? You’ve never feel this way? Hmm… Either I’m super petty or y’all are lying!

Now yes, I am petty (I’m working on it), however, I know for a fact I’m not the only one who feels this way! This feeling is the desire to feel appreciated. Just as we crave appreciation from others, we crave it from our selves as well.

Rejection will always be apart of your life, learn how to push through (instead of spiraling).

If you’ve been with me since the beginning of this journey, or you’ve gone back and read from the beginning, then you know rejection is something I’ve struggled with for the majority of my life. Well, after going months with feeling loved and wanted by everyone, mainly myself, I found myself back in this dark hole, feeling empty, invisible, and outcast.

Now, being fully transparent, feeling like this definitely caused me to backslide and do some things I thought were extremely far behind me. It’s what made me realize I have A LONG way to go and I’m ready to push to the next level.

What I also realized is rejection is a game of the mind. The rejection I felt, came from my family… People I know would not only take a life for me but, give their very own to ensure I never feel hurt again. I know for a fact they were in no way attempting to outcast me, however, I felt rejected. I’m learning how to recognize my triggers of rejection and how to start pushing through the emotions attached.

Keeping busy doesn’t reflect your growth!

Often times, when trying to overcome an obstacle, we believe it’s best to fill all open space. We enroll ourselves in activities, or pick up 100 hours of overtime at work. But, what happens when we run out of space fillers? What happens when we’re forced to face the very “issue” we’ve been avoiding? WE FAIL!!!

This was also me! I had created such a busy life, unknowingly, avoiding the issues I desperately need to work on. When I finally had a moment to breathe, well, I was forced to face my demons so to speak. And, yep, you guessed it, I failed. I,now, know busyness does not equal growth. I have to restructure my progress plan to include temptation, that I may be tested and pass!

This week I was able to fall in love with my imperfections… To see my flaws as opportunities… To make a conscious effort to understand the Alyshia-Mae you all can’t, don’t, or won’t see. I think the most valuable lesson I’ve learned this week is….

You do not get to choose what you deserve or are worthy of!

Before anyone falls off their chair, no I’m not saying you can’t choose what makes you happy. I’m also not saying you are not in control of what transpires in your life. What I AM saying, is when it’s all said and done and all of your flaws and failures are on the table, God still sees your worth and still know what you deserve. Now it’s time for you to see it too.!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

Be Your Own Project

~Oh Hey Family!! I pray you all had a blessed 4th of July! This week, I’d like to remind you all to remember to take time for YOU! It’s just a quick public service announcement, and then I’m going to follow my own advice. Ready to explore? Me too! Indulge & Enjoy!~

Too often, we pour an abundance of our energy, into the people around us, forgetting to refuel ourselves. I mean, we are so concerned with making sure everyone around us is good. We pour into, we give away, we pray for, we even weep with sadness (most of the time not knowing why)… but who’s doing all this for us?

Before someone to tries to tell me about mantels we carry, or how callings from God create responsibilities we don’t ask for… CALM DOWN! I’m not telling anyone to stop pouring into others lives… I’m simply saying we have to start pouring into ourselves AT LEAST HALF the amount we pour into others.

The issue I have with people who constantly pour into others, such as myself, is the low moments, people around them pretend they can’t see. We literally pour our everything into those around us (sometimes even for people that aren’t around us), and no one seems to realize our energy draining.

The most frightening realization is, not realizing individually how low we are. Once we realize something is wrong we tend to not associate it with helping those in need. We just say we need more sleep or need to change our diet… NO! We need to rest… We need to put US first for just a moment… We need to spend some time being our own project!

Never be afraid to step back and refuel yourself. How can you, effectively, assist others if you aren’t at your best? YOU CAN’T! So, if you aren’t taking care of yourself, you can’t continue to build up and pour into those who need it.

With that being said, as I mentioned in the beginning on this journey… I’m taking my own advice and taking a break to rejuvenate myself… There will be no journey Saturday, July 13th. I will see y’all July 20th! Continue to work on you, and find something new to love about yourself. I love you all!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

A Love Letter (First)

~ Hey Hey Family! Before we do anything, I need to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL MOTHER!! This post isn’t about her, however, I definitely have to give a shutout to my biggest supporter. Mommy, I love you and pray this birthday is magical! Thank you, for always supporting me in all I do.

Alright, back to our journey, I pray this week left you at perfect peace with the events of your past! For me, this week has been… well, futuristically romantic is the only way I can think to explain it… Anywho, I’m so excited to share with you!! Are you ready to explore together? Let’s dive in! Indulge and Enjoy!! ~

Dear Husband,

As I sit and think of you, I am forced to think about the “boyfriends” I’ve tried to force in your place. Sorrowed fills my heart, at the thought of giving up on you for the instant gratification of what this generation calls love. I’m embarrassed at how impatient I’ve been. I’m terrified by how careless and vein I’ve become. And, I owe you an apology…

First, allow me to apologize for pushing us further apart. I’ve allowed us to remain strangers, by operating in fear. Out of selfishness, I refused to properly prepare for you. Loneliness became my excuse for not working on me. Fatherlessness, became the crutch explaining the men I choose to give myself to, knowing they would never compare to you.

Next, I need to apologize for not loving myself the way you love me. Randomly throughout my life, when at my lowest moments, I feel a wave of love shower over me. I know it’s you praying for me. I know it’s you begging got to show me how much you love me. And, I know you’re asking God to reveal me to you. I also know, God is explaining to you, “She’s not ready yet, my son.”

I want to apologize for my lack of prayer for you. In the chaotic world we are forced to live in, we need as many believers praying for us as possible. As your future best friend and wife, I should be lifting you up before God daily. I should be praying for your strength in God to live out your destiny. And praying, somewhere soon in your destiny, you’ll be led to me.

I want you to know, I have been working on me for some time now. I’ve been learning how to love me, all of me. By learning to love me, I can now begin loving you. I cherish the process I’m in because I know we’re being pulled closer together. And, if this letter finds you in sadness, heartbreak, or disarray, I’m asking you to smile. Smile knowing this is simply a valley in the journey that will, one day soon, unite you and me.

Until we meet, know I sincerely love you,

Signed: Your partner in Christ

Your future best friend,

Your biggest supporter,

Your Wife…

Marriage is a commitment I’ve wanted since I was a child. Call me old school, however, I don’t plan on having children until after I’m married. What I don’t believe is, my husband will make me whole. God is the only being that can complete me. My husband, however, he will make me stronger in Christ. He will enhance my strengths, and except my flaws while helping me to become an even better woman of God. And, I will do the same for him.

Start praying for your future spouse, the same emotions you deal with are the same ones he/she is going through. The longer we sit in our mess, the further we become from our spouse. Stop cheating yourself and your future spouse…

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.