Do You Know What Today Is?

IT’S OUR ANNIVERSARY!!

Yes! We have been exploring together for exactly ONE YEAR today! Man, I can’t even believe it! I mean I literally remember sitting at my desk (at work) wondering if I should even embark on this journey. I promise I’m so glad I did!

Journeying with you all has taught me so much about myself! I mean, this month last year, God revealed, I knew absolutely nothing about Alyshia-Mae. He showed me, in order to move forward, I had to look backward one last time. So, I chose to do the work! I’m still doing the work… I will forever be doing this work!

Wow! How did I miss the significance of this month? I’m celebrating our first year together while getting settled into an entirely new state! You all journeyed with me through my first trip to Kentucky! Christmas of last year! Now, I live here!!! On top of all that, 2 years ago, on October 6th, 2017, I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior! As you can see, October has been HUGE for me these last couple of years.

Prior to this realization, I use to HATE the month of October! I mean between, clowns, vampires, bats, and zombies, I felt I couldn’t leave the house without being scared out of my mind. I would make sure to be locked in my home before dark and to turn off all the lights on Halloween, to ensure no one knocks on my door. Now, I just feel free. I’m amazed at how God will use a month I dread to bring me back to life! I’m so excited to see how He reveals Himself, even further, to me in this beautiful month!

Are y’all ready to explore on a deeper level? Throughout this last year, I’ve learned to accept all aspects of my past. With me being comfortable with, and accepting my past, it opens up an entirely deeper, more intimate level of exploring!

It’s a beautiful feeling to not fear judgment. To know who you are, in the Father. To accept your mistakes and FORGIVE YOURSELF, as you ask for forgiveness. I thank God for the person I am today, and am ecstatic to pursue Him on an even deeper level throughout this next year of journeying!

I want to take the time out to say THANK YOU ALL!! From the ones who have been with me since Taking a Chance, to the ones who are journeying with us for the first time today, and everyone in between… I LOVE YOU!

I appreciate you, you don’t know how much it means to know I have family in 56 DIFFERENT COUNTRIES. This is only the beginning! I am enthusiastic to see what this next year brings!!

Please note we will not be exploring this Saturday (10/12). I have to get some things situated here in Kentucky. We will be back to our normal schedule the following Saturday (10/19).

Stay tuned as I continue…

“Working on me- While sharing with you!”

I love y’all!

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section.

(All new journeys will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.

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Pushing Through

~Hey Hey Family!! I pray this week was good to you. It was another rough week for me, however, I have faith that this is only preparing me for the blessings soon to come. Are you ready for this week’s journey? Let’s dive in! Indulge and Enjoy!

A few weeks ago, I told you all I was dealing with some stuff that I’m not ready to talk about. Truth? I’m still dealing with it and I’m still not ready to talk about it. (For the person asking, “Why bring it up again, if you still don’t want to talk about it?” KEEP READING!)

Being that I’m an adult with consistent bills and pricey desires, I don’t have the ability to just press pause because I’m going through some things. (Ohh… How I wish I could!) So, this week, as I continue to push through this rough patch, I begin to ask myself, “How do you continue to push through?” Great Question! Let’s explore it…

As each day passed this week, I thought about what really stops me from giving up…

My Faith

I know I’ve mentioned it sporadically in past post, however, I am VERY spiritual. Growing up, I was in church every Sunday and bible study every Wednesday. Of course, back then I disliked church as much as attending Catholic school. As a Baptist, at a Catholic school, with two Muslim best friends, my faith and knowledge base was definitely stretched. Every service I sat through and every religion class I pretended to pay attention in, has in some way assisted with the strength I possess today.

To be clear, the reason my faith is number one on my list, is not that suicide is a sin, or because, there are people in the world that are less fortunate than me (though both are very true). My faith keeps me afloat because when I am at my lowest, literally 2 steps away from giving up, I pray. I pour my heart out to the Lord and ask him to guide me through the emotional/physical pain I’m going through. He never fails to show up and walk through my mess with me. I remember He is the author of my story and He makes no mistakes…

My Stubbornness

Now, this one is a little funny, to be honest. While funny it’s also very important. Regardless of how positive you are, there is always someone praying your downfall. Family, friends, even a stranger, no matter their title in your life, there is a hater somewhere that doesn’t want to see you succeed.For me, this is the exact push I need to make sure I NEVER give up. I REFUSE to allow them to win. Telling me I can do something, or that I won’t succeed, forces me to prove the individual wrong at any cause…

My Destiny

I have a destiny that ONLY I can fulfill! How dare I rob the world of my greatness. I do not have the right to cancel my life mission because my emotions are overwhelming at the moment. “This too shall pass…” and when it does pass, I need to be ready to push forth and be great! I can’t do that if I’ve given up!

My Family

I love and adore my family. Though they may not admit it, I’m the most important person in all of their lives. Like, what would they do without me? With a little sister like me, no moment together can be boring. And, as the best big sister ever, trouble is always around the corner. On top of that, I’m an AMAZING daughter, the BEST auntie ever, the craziest cousin you could ever love, and the greatest friend you’ll ever have. With all the different roles I hold in these peoples lives, why would I force them to live life without me?

Working Out

Everyone needs an outlet. While writing is my emotional unload channel, working out has become my physical release. I use to literally cringe at the thought of becoming fit. Now, it’s as if I can’t have a good day without it. I work out Monday through Friday for at least an hour. I didn’t plan it this way, however, working out after the majority of my day has transpired is GENIUS! During my workout, I feel the stress leave my body and, the sweat is great at masking my tears when my day is extremely tough. I’ve had nights where I cry through the majority of the workout, however, when I’m done I always feel lighter! Fitness has become my reset button!

These are just the 5 drivers that kept me going this week. Depending on what I’m struggling through, they could slightly change. And, some of then just never change. We all go through hard times, some struggles last longer than others. What we all have to remember is this isn’t the end! Whatever you are dealing with will build and mold you for your destiny! Remember, no one can live out your destiny but you.

What pushes you in your tough times to never give up?

As always, feel free to ask questions and/or leave feedback in the comments section. 

(All new post will be uploaded Saturdays by 12:30 EST)

I am BEAUTIFUL. I am PASSIONATE. I will LOVE.